Saturday, December 22, 2012

Let's try this again!

Huzzah!  We are happy to report that we are now expecting again!

This isn't quite the timeline I was looking for - I wanted to wait a year since the miscarriage - but we'll take it!  I'm a ball of anxiety, but that is normal after a loss, so I am rolling with that too.

First indication of me being pregnant?  It was the day after Thanksgiving (November 23), and I was watching the X Factor Thanksgiving special on DVR and I was BAWLING.  Not just sniffling - ugly crying.  Poor Naomi was like "Mommy, are you ok?!"   It was super cute.

Side note - our number 23 is again making itself known.  We have discovered that major life events occur on the 23rd (Married - June 23.  Naomi - March 23.  Closed on the House - May 23.  Found out we were pregnant - November 23).  Weird, but something we have been keeping track of.

We had a bit of a scare during Week 5 (which is when our miscarriage happened in May) with low progesterone and cramping.  Got blood work done, and HCG was in the 1200s, Progesterone was 8.2.

Now, for you all playing the home game, you want HCG levels to double in 48 hours, and progesterone to be around 20 at 5 weeks.  If progesterone gets to 7 or below, it triggers a period, and game over for le pregnancy.  Of course, I began to panic, and the doc immediately put me on progesterone supplements.  48 hours later, HCG was in the 2900s and progesterone was at 43.1.  Huzzah again!

We're due in July, which means I won't be using any of my previous maternity clothes (because they were for October - March, and I am not to the point of needing them yet).  I may get some use, but not as much as I want to.  Boo.  It's also going to be hot as balls, so I am going to be staying inside for the most part.  Fingers crossed that bed rest and pre-eclampsia don't rear it's ugly head.

It's still somewhat early (still in the first trimester), but the doctor said that there is a less than 5% chance of there being a problem because of the strong heartbeat and current growth.  He thinks that the miscarriage in May was caused by low progesterone, so him catching it this time around saved the pregnancy.  I am very grateful to him, because many docs do not check progesterone (just HCG).  I lurve him.

We decided that although we are still in the first trimester we would still announce it after we heard the heartbeat (which we did on December 17).  Even if the worst happens, it's not something that I am against talking about.  What does irritate me, though, is that some think that miscarriage is contagious and don't want to talk.  I don't mean not want to talk about the miscarriage, I mean talk to me.  It's actually pretty sad, and I'm sorry that my loss affects them so much, but that isn't going to stop me from talking about it.  It is sadly such a taboo topic when it shouldn't be - and I will continue to be an advocate for those who have experienced losses.  If this is bothersome to you - to hear about the anxiety and emotion that go with it - then perhaps this is not the blog for you.  I won't talk about it all of the time, but it is a part of my life, and I refuse to be quiet about it, k?

Naomi is very excited, and has asked for a "brudder".  We'll have more of an idea on gender in February, but let's be honest, it's not 100% until le child falls out.

So, huzzah indeed, we are very excited!  I am trying to rest more than I usually would, and Michael has been great with taking more responsibility.  He's a great partner in this journey of life.  (Cough gag cough)